Saturday, January 24, 2015

Uncharted Territory

I grew up around a lot of Christian people for most of my life and I can only name a handful of people that were joyful - out of thousands.

I had heard so much.  I had went to church for so long - for every service.  I didn't miss many- Sunday morning, Sunday night, visitation, Wednesday night, revival - we were always at church.

I continued this into adulthood but then I started going do a different denomination but in all honesty it was a lot the same.

My epiphany came when I sat in Sunday school and the teacher asked what we would do if we only had a week to live.  There, of course, were the standard answers - tell as many people as I could about Jesus.

You know what?  I sat in my chair and my first thought was - "I would stop doing laundry and take my family to the beach."

I didn't think at all about Jesus or about eternity.  I came home and knew I had lost something.  It was a slow epiphany in my case because I kept going through the motions.  I kept reading my Bible daily, doing the accountability thing, going to church but I was pretty much spiritually dead inside because I just didn't believe that what I was taught was it.

I saw such a huge disconnect between what the Bible said and what I saw in churches.  And there was no joy and not a lot of hope.  But condemnation - now that was a plenty.  I was officially over it all.

I had lost my first love as the Bible said.  Manipulation and guilt just stopped working with me.  I could no longer go through the motions because of the guilt I felt.  It wasn't in me.  I did not want to.  I was done.  But I did not know anything else.  How else could one go to God without guilt?  How were you to fill the church pews if not for guilt for not knowing enough and not doing enough?

I didn't know if there was anyone out there that preached the Word but dropped the guilt.  Could there be?  I didn't think so.

So I just kept going to church but I stopped listening when I was there.  Tuning things out or literally walking out to sit in the cafe with my baby.  It is an odd place to be - spiritually desperate and hungry but not knowing what to do about it.

Christians are failing.  To preach the gospel, to love people, to show grace.  I feel like I am in a very odd place because I still 100% believe in Jesus.  I still believe what He says is true.  But I didn't believe in church anymore and I had a hard time going.  Its hard to say that because it was all I ever knew.

But I found that broken people didn't really belong in church.  You can't be broken and let people know about it.  Because if you do you aren't really having faith.  You aren't really changed. 

I finally found a church that fit what I needed.  I call it the soul healing church.   And I fear if we have to move or it disbands that I will stop going to church.

I love the Lord.  I do.  I know the Bible well having studied it all my life and memorizing many verses and chapters.  But legalism scares me.  It makes me run away.  It gives me hives - seriously.  I can't handle it.

So here I am forging ahead despite my fear and despite going into uncharted territory because with grace you don't have the checklist of things I should do or should not do.  With grace you just feel like you are free falling - literally and it is terrifying and wonderful at the same time.

And I'm still on this journey and I'm still trying to figure things out.  In the meantime I pray.  I really pray a lot. 

To be Continued  . . .


Thursday, January 22, 2015

Stitch Fix - my first one! {A Review}

This was my first Stitch Fix!  I really enjoyed all of the pieces.  Go here to see how it works.

This was one outfit - skinny black pants and this top.
Market and Spruce - Sawyer Space Dye Dolman Sleeve Knit Top and Kut from the Kloth - DAnny 5-Pocket Knit Pant:

I just didn't love this scarf.  I'm scarf-phobic - as in I don't know how to wear them and I always feel like they are choking me.  I used the guide as to how to tie it but I'm still not pulling it off.  So I returned it.

I loved this - LA Made Northridge Cowl Neck Jersey Top.  It is out of my norm but I really liked it.  Sorry pictures are not the greatest.

But see I'm still struggling with the scarf.

And this - just way too out of the box for me.  Someone else could pull this off but it just isn't me.

Overall I loved The Fix!  I would definitely do it again.  I'm planning to do it every other month. 
You can pick the cost of the items and these were $50-$100.  I'm going to try my next one to be a little cheaper just to see what I get.  You pay a $20 styling fee and you can return everything and that is all you pay or you only pay for what you keep.  You get a discount if you choose to keep everything.

I think this Stitch Fix thing will be something I try for a while!  Have you done one?

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Monday, January 19, 2015

Weekly Workouts - Going Primal

I've been pretty consistent with my diet for a long while now but not so much with my exercise.  I've walked most weeks but I'm trying to kick up my strength.  My husband does crossfit and loves it.  I've done crossfit and I hate it.  I mean I like the idea of it.  I like the workouts but I don't like doing the workouts quickly with people which is kind of the point of crossfit.

So I've been doing primal instead.  I like it so much better.  I've been following the Primal Blueprint from Mark's Daily Apple.

You can get the ebook for free here.

So I have two strength days and one sprint day and then  the rest of the week I do walking or yoga or Pilates and I LOVE it.  And if I love it I'll actually do it.

 Monday - I usually try to do my sprints on this day.  I walk one mile, then I sprint 30 seconds as fast as I can and recover for 2 minutes and repeat for mile 2, then mile 3 I walk again.

Tuesday - Strength day - I follow the primal blue print  so I do two rounds of push ups, pull ups, squats and planks (and side planks).  I'm following the progression according to the plan.

Wednesday - 3 mile walk, pilates or yoga

Thursday - 3 milk walk, Pilates or yoga

Friday - 3 mile walk, Pilates or yoga

Saturday - strength day - same as Tuesday and possible followed by yoga flexibility

Sunday - Rest baby!

I also downloaded a yoga app that I really like called Yoga Studio.  I highly recommend it.

Since going Paleo and reading lots of crossfit and primal things about exercise I have changed so much of my thinking.  Right now I lean more that chronic cardio can actually be more detrimental than helpful.  It is a tough concept to wrap my mind around since it has always been hammered in my head  - cardio, cardio, cardio.

Now I'm actually eating to live and trying to think more of adding muscle than losing weight.  I have a long way to go but I'm trying to get there.

What workouts are  you doing?


Family Fitness - PE Week 2

Week 2 of Kids workouts!

Last week went so well - we did 4 out of the 5 workouts!  I thought hey lets give it another week and see if we can do it again. 

Day 1 - Watch this video about Why you need good fats!

Workout:  From Crossfit Kids!

Push press demonstration

Day 2 - Watch this video about The Picky Eater Project

Workout:  From Crossfit Kids!

How to do a kettlebell deadlift

Day 3 - Watch this video about How chemicals and dyes are bad for your body

Workout:  from Crossfit Kids

How to do a hang power clean

 Day 4 - Watch this video about How the Body works - Teeth

Workout:  from Crossfit Kids

How to do a wall walk

Day 5 - Watch this video about How the Body Works - Hair

Workout:  from Crossfit Kids

How to do a Hollow Rock


Sunday, January 11, 2015

Weekly Menu Paleo - 1.11.15

I cook a lot.  Like a lot lot lot lot lot - like run the dishwasher 2-3 times a day a lot.  I'm home, we homeschool so that is like 3 meals a day plus 2 snacks for 5-6 people!  I'm thankful though that we can be home and that I can control what we eat most days.  Its just the dishes - am I right???  But I am thankful for a dishwasher and kiddos that unload it.

Here is this week's menu.  Some are even Whole30 compliant.


Paleo sausage egg mc"muffin"

Bacon and eggs and green peppers and apples

Baked Pumpkin Donuts (for the kiddos)

My fried potatoes, sausage and eggs skillet (It is basically Pioneer Woman's Breakfast Burritos without the cheese and without the tortillas)

Paleo Pumpkin Waffles

And this:


Lunch is honestly just mostly leftovers from supper or if we fill the grill for the week, we have meat or chicken and then a green smoothie or salad and fruit.


Sweet Potato Buffalo Chicken Casserole

Ultimate Paleo Chili over baked potatoes (Didn't have this last week)

Chicken zoodle soup

Slow cooker chicken burrito bowls

Asian ground beef and broccoli slaw lettuce cups

Paleo Orange Chicken and stir fry veggies and fried cauliflower rice (didn't have this last week)

Leftover Day


Family Fitness - P.E. Week 1

I am hoping to post these weekly for our family to do together.  All workouts are from CrossFit Kids unless otherwise mentioned.  Each day also has a video about health ito watch as well.  I have linked to the workouts rather than copy and post them.  I did try to post how-to for certain moves that you might not be familiar with.

Disclaimer - always check with your doctor before starting a new exercise program.  You should make every attempt to use proper form so that you do not get injured.

Needed equipment - pull up bar, 4# and 10# weighted ball,  12" - 20" box for stepping up,

Week 1

Day 1 - Read about why water is the best drink to drink.

Workout:  (From Bodeefit Kids)

How to do a proper squat:


Day 2 - Watch this video about What your poop says about you!

Workout: (From CrossFit Kids)

How to do a handstand:

Or a handstand:

Day 3 - Watch this video about Why can't I have sugar?

Workout: (From CrossFit Kids)

How to do a proper pull up:

Day 4 - Watch this video about Is Peanut Butter Good for you?

Workout: From CrossFit Kids

How to do knees to elbows:

How to Play World War Z

Day 5 - Watch this video about How to brush your teeth properly.

Workout:  From CrossFit Kids

How to do Monkey hangs:

How to do thrusters:

How to do a box step:

Day 6 -

Kids Yoga workout

Hope you had a great week of fitness!!!


Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Why I chose Paleo

Last year at this time I had four kids, I was pretty overweight and I could not lose a pound.  I was trying and trying to do it the way I used to and I couldn't lose more than like 3 pounds.  I was still almost the same weight I was when I was 9 months pregnant.  Ack!

I have always had a struggle with weight but I had been quite a bit thinner as proof of this picture when I was about two months pregnant with my first child:

But after years of having babies and not really taking good care of myself I woke up and wanted to do something different.  I had done weight watchers before.  I knew I did want to lose weight like that again plus I wanted to eat whole foods and not "low fat", "sugar free", pretend foods, etc.

I also hate counting calories!  So my choices were very limited.  I tried eating whole foods and limiting them on my own and like I said I lost a few pounds but nothing profound.  Then my husband told me he wanted to do something called the Whole30.

I looked at it and thought it was crazy!  But I was desperate by this point and I knew I didn't want to cook two meals so I thought about it.  My husband didn't even want me to do it because he knew how grouchy I'd be without bread and cheese.  I got hangry people!

But more than my weight I wanted to stop feeling aches and pains and headaches and anxiety and depression.  I was game but I would NOT give up my coffee creamer.  You can read my Whole30 wrap up here.  I have since given up my coffee creamer.

After doing the Whole30 I went paleo and I have not looked back.  The only reason I have kept doing it is how truly amazing I feel.  I mean ridiculously amazing.  I mean like no aches and pains, no headaches.  It was pretty unbelievable especially since I was just doing this by eating certain food not taking supplements or anything else.

I lost 20 lbs over the course of time I've been doing it - about 9 months.  I mean  I lost the 20 in the first 4 months and have maintained since then within about 3 or so pounds.  I do need to lose more and I know I've gotten comfortable so I know I need to kick it up a notch and focus on working out a little more too.

But the reasons I did paleo were because of the science behind it.  It makes sense to me.  It works for me.  Positive Changes to Expect when going Paleo:

"Unlike regular fad diets that are usually built with only weight loss in mind, a Paleo diet supports the perfect gene expression for our bodies. Everything about how your system works will start to adjust beginning at the cellular level. You’ll experience all sorts of transformations unique to your own needs as your body begins to balance itself and create homeostasis."
And I've found when you "go Paleo" and it works for you - you become a bit obsessed about it and talk a lot about it and post a lot about it and post pictures of your meals and tell all your friends.  People do get sick of hearing about it and I get that.  I just can't stop.  Also I got my cholesterol checked and I had last year's numbers to compare to this year's numbers - It went down 21 points!  From 160 to 139 - what what?!

Those are all the reasons I am now Paleo and will be for the unforeseeable future. It is not easy but nothing worth doing is.

Have you tried Paleo?